Got a million thoughts / and they don’t stay still
Tryna shut ’em down / but they pushin’ through will
Every time I reach / for a little control
It slips through my hands / now I’m losin’ my hold
Mind full of static / like a TV gone dead
Every fear I buried still livin’ in my head
Thoughts crash hard / like a train off track
And the harder I fight / the harder they attack
When I do things / I give it my all
’Til I’m drained out / I don’t feel nothin’ at all
Heart goes numb / like I hit a wall
Still keep goin’ / even when I fall
Run myself empty / just to feel okay
Like a candle burnin’ down tryin’ to light the way
Everybody sees me standin’ tall on the outside
But inside feels like a war that I can’t hide
Keep it bottled up / yeah, I learned that young
Now it spills out fast / when it hits my tongue
Say I’m fine out loud / but I know I’m not
Just a tangled mess / of the things I’ve fought
I built walls so high / now I’m trapped inside
Every emotion got buried alive
Pressure buildin’ up / like a dam might break
And I’m scared one day that’s all it’ll take
(Chorus)
My anxiety / won’t let me in
Locked out my own mind / can’t face what’s within
Feels like my thoughts got me tied in chains
Every single day just repeats the pain
My mind’s like a house with the lights burned out
Every hallway echoes when the fear gets loud
Tryna find myself / but I feel long gone
Like I’m screaming through the dark but nobody responds
(Verse 2)
People think I’m strong / ’cause I never break down
But they don’t hear the chaos when nobody’s around
Every little problem turns giant in my brain
Like a thunderstorm cloudin’ every lane
Lie awake at night / while my thoughts race fast
Replayin’ every failure / every moment in the past
It’s like runnin’ in circles / no finish line
Tryna outrun shadows livin’ in my mind
And I hate how I care / to the point it hurts
Give my whole heart first / always end up worse
Then I blame myself / when it all goes wrong
Like I been carryin’ this weight for way too long
(Bridge)
I can’t find myself / feel like I’m gone
Hear it knockin’ at the door / but somethin’s wrong
Maybe the real me got buried deep
Under all this pressure I was forced to keep
Anxiety lurkin’ like a thief at night
Stealin’ every little piece of peace inside
And I keep fighting battles nobody can see
Tryna save the person I used to be
(Final Chorus)
My anxiety / won’t let me in
Locked out my own mind / can’t face what’s within
Still I keep movin’ even when I’m weak
Searchin’ for the version of myself I seek
Maybe someday / all this weight gon’ fade
Maybe I won’t feel so lost, so afraid
Till then these lyrics the only place I heal
Turnin’ all this pain into somethin’ real
MakaylaWall
