Pretending I’m Fine

I wake up every morning, but I’m still half asleep

The world’s spinning around me, but I can't find my feet

I’m smiling on the outside, but inside is so cold

Wishing I could let go, but I don’t feel bold

I’m tired of pretending I’m fine,

When I’m slowly running out of time

I’ve got these pills in my hand,

But they don’t make me understand

I'm stuck in this cycle, always feeling lost

Chasing the light, but I’m paying the cost

I’m not broken, but I can’t stand still

This functional depression is stronger than will

I don’t wanna rely on these meds anymore

But it's getting harder to find the strength to soar

I used to dream about something bright

Now it’s hard to see the sun through the night

I keep moving forward, but it’s all in vain

The weight on my chest, I can’t explain

I’m tired of pretending I’m fine,

When I’m slowly running out of time

I’ve got these pills in my hand,

But they don’t make me understand

I'm stuck in this cycle, always feeling lost

Chasing the light, but I’m paying the cost

I’m not broken, but I can’t stand still

This functional depression is stronger than will

I don’t wanna rely on these meds anymore

But it's getting harder to find the strength to soar

Is there a way out? Is there a way through?

Or am I stuck with these chains, can’t break through

I keep hoping tomorrow won’t feel the same

But I’m still here, and I’m still in this game

I'm stuck in this cycle, always feeling lost

Chasing the light, but I’m paying the cost

I’m not broken, but I can’t stand still

This functional depression is stronger than will

I don’t wanna rely on these meds anymore

But it's getting harder to find the strength to soar

I’m searching for a way to heal

But for now, I just need to feel

If I can take one step more today

Maybe I’ll find my way out of this gray