Too Expensive For My Heart

(Verse 1)
I met you in the neon, second road nights,
Didn’t care ’bout the noise, just the shine in your eyes.
But you came with a price tag I could never meet,
Freelance heart, walking every different street.
And I tried to hold you close, keep you safe in my arms,
But you lived in a world full of whispers and charms.
Every message on your phone felt like breaking glass,
I’m loving someone living in a different class.

(Pre-Chorus)
And I swear I never wanted to doubt you,
But every night your stories changed.
You said you loved me, said you were loyal,
But your life was rearranged.

(Chorus)
’Cause I love you but I can’t afford you,
Not your lifestyle, not your truth.
Your freedom costs more than my heart can pay,
And I’m breaking trying to stay with you.
You’re a dream I shouldn’t chase,
But damn, I still run every time.
I love you but I can’t afford you,
Even though you were never mine.

(Verse 2)
They told me I’m stupid, said I’m blind as hell,
Friends laughing at me, saying “bro, can’t you tell?”
You say you’re not mamasan, but I’ve seen the signs,
Pictures of girls, deals made behind the lines.
And I don’t want to judge you, that’s not who I am,
But I’m tired of feeling like your backup plan.
You’re living a life that I can’t control,
And it’s killing every piece of my soul.

(Pre-Chorus)
’Cause I tried to trust you fully,
But trust just isn’t free.
You want a world that loves you,
But that world ain’t built for me.

(Chorus)
’Cause I love you but I can’t afford you,
Not your nights out, not your pain.
I’m paying with pieces of my sanity,
And getting nothing back again.
You’re a fire I keep returning to,
Even though it burns me every time.
I love you but I can’t afford you,
Even though you were never mine.

(Bridge)
Maybe in another life,
Where money don’t matter, and truth ain’t a fight.
Maybe I could be the man you need,
Not the one left torn, trying to bleed.
But here in this world, under Pattaya lights,
You’re too expensive for my lonely nights.
And loving you feels like paying rent
In a house that’s already been spent.

(Final Chorus)
I love you but I can’t afford you,
Your heart’s living on a different wage.
You’re a chapter I keep rereading
Even though it hurts every page.
You’re the dream I shouldn’t chase,
But still I chase you every time.
I love you but I can’t afford you…
And you were never really mine.

Emotional acoustic heartbreak with modern R&B undertones, soft trap percussion, and neon-city melancholy vibes, male