This mess I am in

(Verse 1)

I spiral in my bedroom, thoughts too loud to sleep,

Every “what if” screaming things I’m scared to be.

I’m praying with shaking hands, mascara on my cheeks,

Asking You for answers, begging You for peace.

They say I should be grateful, but I don’t feel strong,

Feels kinda fake singing hopeful when it hurts this long.

But You meet me in the silence when I fall apart,

And You whisper calm into my racing heart.

(Bridge)

So I take a breath, I let it go,

I put it all in Your hands, even though

I don’t know how the story ends.

(Chorus)

I still say thank You in the mess I’m in,

In the waiting, in the breaking, in the “why did this happen?”

I’ll walk through Your gates with a trembling praise,

Even when my faith feels paper-thin some days.

Whatever I do, whatever I become,

I’ll do it all in the name of Your love.

I don’t get it all, but I choose to trust You—

Yeah, I still say thank You.

(Verse 2)

The sun goes down, the moon takes its place,

You keep the world spinning at a perfect pace.

If You feed the lions, dress the trees in green,

Maybe You’re not done taking care of me.

I see the trials carving lines in my face,

But perseverance grows in the pain I hate.

I’m learning strength isn’t never falling down,

It’s getting back up when You pull me off the ground.

(Bridge)

So I bring You my fear, my doubt, my shame,

Every broken prayer, every half-said name.

(Chorus)

I still say thank You in the mess I’m in,

In the waiting, in the breaking, in the “why did this happen?”

I’ll walk through Your courts with a fragile praise,

Let Your peace take over my anxious brain.

Whatever I do, whatever I become,

I’ll do it all in the name of Your love.

I don’t see it yet, but I’m holding onto

The truth that You’re good, so I thank You.

(Bridge soft, then building)

They say suffering makes a stronger soul,

Character grows when I lose control.

Hope feels distant, but it’s still alive,

Poured in my heart by Your Spirit inside.

So take my life, every word, every breath,

A living sacrifice, even at my weakest.

If I eat, if I drink, if I laugh, if I cry,

Let it all point back to You tonight.

(Final Chorus)

I still say thank You when I don’t understand,

When the answer’s “wait” and not what I planned.

Your peace guards my heart, my soul, my mind,

A love this deep doesn’t waste the pain in my life.

Whatever I do, whatever comes undone,

I’ll do it all for the glory of God.

I’m not ashamed of the hope You give me—

Yeah, I still say thank You.

(Outro)

Indescribable gift, I don’t deserve it,

But I’m standing here alive because You’re worth it.

Through the dark, through the dawn, through the truth You prove—

I still say thank You…