[Style: Indie Rap/Pop. / Emotional Acoustic]
[Mood: Heavy → honest → fragile hope]
[Intro (soft, almost whispered)]
What happened…
How did I get back here again…?
[Verse 1]
What happened… one mistake and I’m back here again
Mentally worse than I’ve been in a minute
Hours go by and they feel like a war
Even with people around I’m alone to the core
What do I love about life? I forget
Some days I pray, some days I miss it
Turn to God but my mind says “why?”
Still I whisper something at night
[Pre-Chorus]
The cycle spins and I can’t get out
Same thoughts running, same self-doubt
[Chorus]
Should I still be here? I don’t know…
Everything feels like it’s out of control
Smiling outside but I’m breaking below…
Trying to hold on, trying to hold on
[Verse 2]
Isolated from the world I built
Even pulling away from the ones I love still
Scared of the future, scared I’ll fail
Every next step feels like a trail to hell
Tears welling up but I keep them in
Can’t let ‘em see what’s under my skin
Mad at myself for everything wrong…
Trying to write it out in this song
[Pre-Chorus]
I say I’m fine but I know I’m not
Everything’s heavy, I’m losing the plot
[Chorus]
Should I still be here? I don’t know…
Everything feels like it’s out of control
Smiling outside but I’m breaking below…
Trying to hold on, trying to hold on
[Verse 3 (Fear)]
Fear knocked… and this time I answered
Felt bad, so I held him closer after
“Love your enemies,” I said, “keep ‘em near…”
Thought I was stronger facing what I fear
He started sobbing, thanked me like before
Like he’d been here knocking at my door
But the moment I let him inside my space…
Everything hit me all at once in waves
Now my chest tight, mind going numb
Like I lost the fight I thought I’d won
I tried to help, I tried to care…
Now he’s everywhere
[Bridge (stripped, emotional)]
Life was good before the stress and loss
Now everything feels like it comes with a cost
Sanity slipping, I don’t feel whole…
Tell me how do I take control?
[Final Chorus (slightly lifted, fragile hope)]
Should I still be here? …yeah, I’m still here
Even if everything isn’t clear
Even if I don’t know how to feel…
I’m still breathing… that’s something real
Should I still be here? …I don’t know why
But I’m still waking up, still trying to fight
Even when everything tells me to go…
I’m holding on… even if I don’t know
[Outro (soft, fading)]
I’m still here…
I’m still here…
ELIROBB