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Poem titled: Stuck on you.

By Dawn

I wished you never reach out to me, because ever since we talked, you have taken over my thoughts.

You said all the right stuff..or should I say, you said just enough, to make me believe that your words were true.

But just like before…

no effort, no pull…

no reaching, no trying, no nothing at all.

Just quiet, just distance, just déjà vu…

nothing but silence coming from you.

It’s crazy how I let a few calls. A few texts. Nothing promised, nothing set, was enough to make me flip the switch and disconnect from the one that I was with..

Usually I don’t believe men,

I believe patterns instead,

But your words hit different,

they don’t fade or slide.

They stay, they linger,

they echo inside.

I tell myself lies just to make it make sense,

pretend you’re just waiting on me and caught in suspense.

But I know there’s someone standing where I should be,

someone you talk to the way you use to talked to me.

Yes, I still get a little jealous, like you’re somehow mine,

my heart still moves for you every time.

I should not feel this way,

not after you left me that day.

You abandoned me after all,

turned your back,and didn’t even call.

I questioned my sanity, my timing, my truth, my view, so much that I dismantled a whole relationship for you… or maybe for me too.

Just to make space for honesty, just to see if the pull was real, or just another illusion I was meant to unlearn, meant to heal.

I walked away from certainty, from the safety I always knew, not because you asked me to but because my heart stayed loud and my mind stayed stuck on you.