I’m trying not to break
I’m trying not to hope
But each and every day I find it harder to cope
With everything that you put me through
To be honest I don’t know what to say
I’m just spilling my thoughts onto this page
Cause this is the only way i can get through all of the pain
I used to think you were the most beautiful rose that could ever bloom
Not knowing that my childhood would’ve ended so soon
If you knew you would’ve regretted it then why was I born
I would soon come to know that each rose has its thorns
Damaged, hollow, and empty
Words that I use to describe me
Damaged, hollow, and empty
Also invisible cause I’m something you never seem to see
As my mother our souls used to be one
But you tore that apart
The tear echoing like the blast from a loaded gun
Why can’t you understand that I needed you
But you drifted away we’re no longer close
Why is it that the ones closest to you always hurt you most
You say your depicted as the bad guy
Well I’m the hero that you crushed
You think I paint you as the villain
But my bloods on the brush
Drip drip drip goes the paint
You always say your the villain
But your presence is so faint
This bloody painting I made for you will be your legacy
I’ve always wanted to be the hero
I never knew my mother would be my enemy
I’m drowning in my sorrows trying not to choke
Loving always ends with the heart being broke
My shallow soul echoing with each word that you spoke
I’m chained by the memories chained by the pain
You were my greatest loss and my greatest gain
You taught me what it’s like to be shattered
Don’t worry the painting still here with my blood that you splattered..
Onto the canvas
These memories of you have become a curse
Drip drip drip goes the paint
You always say your the villain
But your presence is so faint
This bloody painting I made for you will be your legacy
I’ve always wanted to be the hero
I never knew my mother would be my enemy