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I know every crack

Every stain on my own name

I still turn the mirror

So I can blame the frame

I joke about my habits

Like I’m proud of falling short

Turning scars into small talk

Just to dodge the deeper hurt

Dead honest in the dark

But I act fine in the daylight

I hate myself so hard

Then I laugh it off as stage fright

Yeah I know my weakest parts

Every bruise

Every bad side

But I drown it in the echo

Till the truth goes quiet

I keep scores in my head

Every time I walked away

Replay every failure

Like it’s my favorite mistake

I say “that’s just how I am”

Like a shield I can hide behind

If I never really try

Then I can call it “by design”

Turn the volume up

On anything but me

Fill the room with noise

So I don’t have to see

[low vocal register] I’m tired of this script

But it fits me like a glove

[whispered vocals] I can’t stand the way I am

But I’m scared of who I was