I Wasn’t the Only Girl

You said I was enough,

But your eyes kept drifting.

I felt it in the room,

Like I was just a fill-in.

You compared me to your ex, and God, that hurt.

Four years on my sleeve, and you never opened your heart to me.

Deep down I always knew,

I was your last thought.

Those midnight bike rides,

Your hand resting on my leg,

For a little while the questions in my head

About whether you liked me disappeared.

I stretched my arms into the wind as you rode,

Feeling like I was floating in the clouds.

Late-night conversations,

Dinners at Thai,

Going to Vivid, lost in the city lights.

Walks along the beach,

A weekend in Tuross Heads,

Watching the sunrise paint the sky.

Now they’re just memories

Of something that could’ve been.

I wasn’t the only girl,

But I kept holding on.

You stayed halfway, one foot out the door.

I was standing on the edge

While you were already gone.

You left me here to learn

What your silence burned.

I wasn’t the only girl,

Hearing all the words

You can never take back.

Broken and wasted,

Bruised by the truth,

But somehow, somehow,

I’m still standing.

Now I see the shape of it,

The emptiness in your eyes.

A room with every chair

Turned toward someone else.

I was reaching for forever,

You were keeping your distance.

I kept trying to hold us together,

While you were slowly letting go.

I’m taking back my heart

From every place you left it.

I’m done collecting ashes

From something meant to bloom.

I wasn’t the only girl,

But I kept holding on.

You stayed halfway, one foot out the door.

I was standing on the edge

While you were already gone.

You left me here to learn

What your silence burned.

I wasn’t the only girl,

Hearing all the words

You can never take back.

Broken and wasted,

Bruised by the truth,

But somehow, somehow,

I’m still standing.

The mirror saw it first,

Your hoodie on my chair.

Your name still in my phone,

Like a bruise that wouldn’t fade.

I learned your Sunday face,

The one that never stayed.

I cleaned up all the pieces

You left behind one day.

I finally see the truth:

I was loving all your maybe’s,

While you were never really here.

I wore those moments

Like they meant something honest.

I made a home in your lies.

Now I’m packing up the damage.

Every “maybe” that you gave

Was a knife in slow motion.

Take the frame off the wall,

Let it fall.

I gave you my whole heart,

You gave me almost nothing at all.

You left me here to learn

What your silence burned.

I wasn’t the only girl,

Carrying the weight

Of words you can’t take back.

Broken and wasted,

Bruised by the truth,

But somehow, somehow,

I’m still standing.

You never really opened your heart to me.

Maybe there was something there

You were too afraid to show.

I always felt like I came second,

Like there were always other girls

Standing in the room beside me.

I was blinded by hope,

Loving someone

Who never fully chose me.