Struggle

Up late can't sleep who am I to put my thoughts on repeat. same shit different day, although I'm home I feel like a stray. So much on my mind but I can't find the time to cope. Feeling like a fiend for dope. Not knowing which way to turn, burning in hell while my heart breaks for life. So many things going on at this moment, I don't know if I'm able to pull through. It's been a long fight. But I'm about to call it a night. It's always raining when my heart's broken and my bodies ran down. So hard to stop when theres no end. Not enough hours in the day to say how I feel. Reeling closer to the moment everything comes to an end. Head hurts eyes burn and I'm still waiting on the dirt. Life's so hard so I'm ready to rest in peace. Beggin for forgiveness can a brother get a witness that gives a shit. All alone in my own mind. Trying to find the time to realize what's mine. Everything I love isn't enough. So I keep tryin to find, what it'll take to help me through all this pain. Sometimes I'm blind, even though I see that all the parts of me is all I really need. Help me rise up to these thoughts and turn me back into who I use to be. I just want to be the person I use to be.