Door Still Shaking

Verse

I learned to breathe so quietly

Like nobody could hear me exist

Turned every bruise into a whisper

Called it surviving, called it “handling this”

I learned to shrink inside a room

So it wouldn’t feel my weight

Swallowed every scream like a secret

That I never meant to say

Pre-Chorus

They said, “Time will fix it all”

But time just taught me how to last

There’s a difference between being alive

And being past

Chorus

I won’t wait for a door to open

If it’s locked, I’ll break it apart

I’ve been running on stubborn motion

And the wreckage of a stubborn heart

If surviving is a kind of violence

Then I learned it from the start

I won’t wait for a door to open

I’ve been running half erased, half scarred

Yeah, I’ve been running half erased, half scarred

Verse

I carry a past that fills the room

Like smoke that won’t fade away

Every kindness feels conditional

Every win comes too late

I’ve loved things that tried to break me

Trusted calm that disappeared

But there’s a pulse beneath all the damage

That whispers, don’t disappear

Pre-Chorus

I don’t believe in miracles

I believe in showing up torn

I believe in becoming something

Just to prove I was born

Chorus

I won’t wait for a door to open

If it’s locked, I’ll break it apart

I’ve been running on stubborn motion

And the wreckage of a stubborn heart

If surviving is a kind of violence

Then I learned it from the start

I won’t wait for a door to open

I’ve been running half erased, half scarred

There’s no rescue coming for me

No clean ending, no absolution

Just my hands, shaking but steady

Building life from refusal

I didn’t heal

I adapted

I didn’t win

I lasted

I won’t wait for a door to open

If it’s locked, I’ll tear the frame apart

I’ve been living off stubborn motion

And the wreckage of a stubborn heart

If surviving is a kind of violence

Then I learned it from the start

I won’t wait for a door to open

I’m still here—unfinished, breathing, scarred

Call it damage

Call it sin

Call it anything

I’m still in