I don’t miss you
I miss the person I became
When I thought you were staying
When my heart still knew your name
You left quietly
Like I wasn’t worth the sound
Just one day I was your home
The next, I was background
I keep replaying moments
Trying to find the crack
The second where I loved you more
Than I could ever get back
I gave you my future
Before I gave it a thought
Now I live in the aftermath
Of everything we weren’t
I don’t cry the way I should
It just settles in my chest
Like grief that learned to whisper
So it doesn’t wake the rest
You were the place I ran to
When the world got hard to stand
Now the world feels endless
And I’ve got no place to land
So how do you survive
When love was your only plan?
I didn’t just lose your arms
I lost who I was becoming as your man
I would’ve stayed through anything
Through silence, storms, and doubt
You didn’t have to break me
You just had to walk out
Now every dream feels dangerous
Every promise feels untrue
I don’t know how to love again
Without turning into you
If you ever think of me
Know I loved you past the end
I stayed even when it hurt
You left before I could pretend
And one day I’ll say I’m better
But tonight I’ll tell the truth
I didn’t just lose your love
I lost myself trying to keep you