Addicted to You

I text you at 2 a.m., don’t even know why

Heart’s on my sleeve, but I hide it with pride

You left the door open, I walked in my mind

Chasing the pieces I can’t seem to find

I sip on my tea, taste bitter and sweet

Your name on my tongue, yeah it tastes like defeat

I tell myself “don’t call, don’t stay, don’t care”

But I lay awake wondering if you even care

I know I’m too much, I know I’m too late

I paint my own heart, but you decorate

Every memory lingers like smoke in my chest

I’m a mess, I confess, but I’m still obsessed

I don’t wanna love you, I just want your eyes

Your touch in my dreams, your words in disguise

I’m tangled in feelings I can’t seem to shake

I hate how I need you, I hate how I break

I’m soft, I’m strong, I’m wrong, I’m true

Every night I’m addicted to the thought of you

I wear my loneliness like a favorite coat

Smile on my face, but my throat can’t gloat

I watch you online, pretend I don’t care

Laugh with my friends, but you’re everywhere

You say I’m too quiet, I say I’m too loud

I’m stuck in the space between lost and proud

I want you, I want me, I want what I can’t say

I replay our fights like a movie on replay

I know I’m too much, I know I’m too late

I paint my own heart, but you decorate

Every memory lingers like smoke in my chest

I’m a mess, I confess, but I’m still obsessed

I don’t wanna love you, I just want your eyes

Your touch in my dreams, your words in disguise

I’m tangled in feelings I can’t seem to shake

I hate how I need you, I hate how I break

I’m soft, I’m strong, I’m wrong, I’m true

Every night I’m addicted to the thought of you

Maybe I’m selfish, maybe I’m blind

Maybe your shadow is the one I find

I cry when I’m happy, I cry when I’m sad

Love you and hate you, it’s good and it’s bad

I don’t wanna love you, I just want your eyes

I’m tangled in feelings I can’t seem to shake

I hate how I need you, I hate how I break

I’m soft, I’m strong, I’m wrong, I’m true

Every night I’m addicted to the thought of you