[Verse 1]
I text you at 2 a.m., don’t even know why
Heart’s on my sleeve, but I hide it with pride
You left the door open, I walked in my mind
Chasing the pieces I can’t seem to find
I sip on my tea, taste bitter and sweet
Your name on my tongue, yeah it tastes like defeat
I tell myself “don’t call, don’t stay, don’t care”
But I lay awake wondering if you even care
[Pre-Chorus]
I know I’m too much, I know I’m too late
I paint my own heart, but you decorate
Every memory lingers like smoke in my chest
I’m a mess, I confess, but I’m still obsessed
[Chorus]
I don’t wanna love you, I just want your eyes
Your touch in my dreams, your words in disguise
I’m tangled in feelings I can’t seem to shake
I hate how I need you, I hate how I break
I’m soft, I’m strong, I’m wrong, I’m true
Every night I’m addicted to the thought of you
[Verse 2]
I wear my loneliness like a favorite coat
Smile on my face, but my throat can’t gloat
I watch you online, pretend I don’t care
Laugh with my friends, but you’re everywhere
You say I’m too quiet, I say I’m too loud
I’m stuck in the space between lost and proud
I want you, I want me, I want what I can’t say
I replay our fights like a movie on replay
[Pre-Chorus]
I know I’m too much, I know I’m too late
I paint my own heart, but you decorate
Every memory lingers like smoke in my chest
I’m a mess, I confess, but I’m still obsessed
[Chorus]
I don’t wanna love you, I just want your eyes
Your touch in my dreams, your words in disguise
I’m tangled in feelings I can’t seem to shake
I hate how I need you, I hate how I break
I’m soft, I’m strong, I’m wrong, I’m true
Every night I’m addicted to the thought of you
[Bridge]
Maybe I’m selfish, maybe I’m blind
Maybe your shadow is the one I find
I cry when I’m happy, I cry when I’m sad
Love you and hate you, it’s good and it’s bad
[Final Chorus / Outro]
I don’t wanna love you, I just want your eyes
I’m tangled in feelings I can’t seem to shake
I hate how I need you, I hate how I break
I’m soft, I’m strong, I’m wrong, I’m true
Every night I’m addicted to the thought of you