I’d Rather Lose You

Verse 1

I don’t miss you
I miss the version of me that could
Let a touch feel harmless
The way I thought it should

You lean closer
My chest locks tight
I count the seconds
Till I can say goodnight

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Pre-Chorus

They said the feeling
Would find me someday
But it only shows up
When I’m trying to get away

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Chorus

I don’t know how to want you
And I hate that it’s true
I look at your mouth
And feel nothing move

You’re doing everything right
That’s what breaks me apart
There’s no villain here
Just a locked-door heart

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Verse 2

I practice warmth
Like it’s something I owe
I smile on cue
So you don’t know

When you say “stay”
I freeze in place
Like love is a room
I don’t recognize

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Pre-Chorus 2

Everyone swears
It’ll soften with time
But time just taught me
How to cross the line

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Chorus (Stripped)

I don’t know how to want you
I wish I could lie
Say my body’s not screaming
Every time you try

You hold me like home
But I feel miscast
Like I stepped into a life
That wasn’t meant to last

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Bridge

(Guitar drops out halfway through)

Maybe I’m not broken
Maybe this is me
Maybe wanting less
Is honesty

Or maybe I learned love
With nowhere to land
So closeness still feels
Like a demand

(Guitar comes back, low and slow)

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Final Chorus

I don’t know how to want you
And that’s my fault
You deserve desire
Not a constant halt

So if I pull away
Please don’t make me stay
I’d rather lose you
Than fake my way

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Outro

(Almost spoken)

I don’t hate you
I just don’t feel safe
And forcing a feeling
Feels crueler than space

Sad girl indie / bedroom pop-R&B (acoustic side) close-mic vocals, emotional realism,raw, intimate, vulnerable