I’d Rather Lose You

Verse 1

I don’t miss you

I miss the version of me that could

Let a touch feel harmless

The way I thought it should

You lean closer

My chest locks tight

I count the seconds

Till I can say goodnight

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Pre-Chorus

They said the feeling

Would find me someday

But it only shows up

When I’m trying to get away

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Chorus

I don’t know how to want you

And I hate that it’s true

I look at your mouth

And feel nothing move

You’re doing everything right

That’s what breaks me apart

There’s no villain here

Just a locked-door heart

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Verse 2

I practice warmth

Like it’s something I owe

I smile on cue

So you don’t know

When you say “stay”

I freeze in place

Like love is a room

I don’t recognize

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Pre-Chorus 2

Everyone swears

It’ll soften with time

But time just taught me

How to cross the line

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Chorus (Stripped)

I don’t know how to want you

I wish I could lie

Say my body’s not screaming

Every time you try

You hold me like home

But I feel miscast

Like I stepped into a life

That wasn’t meant to last

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Bridge

(Guitar drops out halfway through)

Maybe I’m not broken

Maybe this is me

Maybe wanting less

Is honesty

Or maybe I learned love

With nowhere to land

So closeness still feels

Like a demand

(Guitar comes back, low and slow)

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Final Chorus

I don’t know how to want you

And that’s my fault

You deserve desire

Not a constant halt

So if I pull away

Please don’t make me stay

I’d rather lose you

Than fake my way

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Outro

(Almost spoken)

I don’t hate you

I just don’t feel safe

And forcing a feeling

Feels crueler than space