Insomnia

If I could just get some rest and these thoughts off my chest..

If I could just pass the test to be my true self.

If I could just have said less and proved my intent.

If I could just have a spine, you wouldn't have left.

A vast expanse of faces going passed,

Somehow attention of others still gets grabbed.

I'm paranoid that my thoughts may come to pass.

That I may be the black sheep of the class.

Classy in my silence, I'm nasty and I'm violent.

I'm depressed and suicidal.. quetiapine and nytol.

I'm dieting drugs like it's keto,

Losing weight, I can't eat now.

Give me some space, I need to sleep now.

Oh wait.. here comes the insomnia,

It wants me to freak out.

I'm laying there with thoughts of ya,

My heart, it wants to leap out.

If I could just get some rest and these thoughts off my chest..

If I could just pass the test to be my true self.

If I could just have said less and proved my intent.

If I could just have a spine, you wouldn't have left.