Still unheard

I’m fading in the hallway lights again

Shoes by the door, but I don’t know where I’ve been

My heart’s bruised from learning how to pretend

Laughing at jokes that I don’t get in the end

I keep my head down, counting every crack

Every word you said that I can’t take back

I talk to the ceiling like it talks to me

Feels safer than saying what you actually mean

I tried to be loud, tried to be right

But I’m always the ghost in the room at night

I’m screaming but I’m still unheard

Choking on all the things I never said

I’m hollowed out, yeah I feel it burn

Trying to feel something instead

I’m still-aching when your name comes up

Like a wound I never learned to cover up

I swear I’m fine, but it’s just a lie

I tell myself so I can sleep tonight

The mirror knows me better than my friends

It sees the parts of me I try to bend

Every promise written in my skin

Wearing regrets like they’re stitched in

I replay moments I should’ve let die

Every “I’m okay” that was really a cry

You said “it’ll pass,” I said “yeah, maybe”

But I’m stuck in the same damn place lately

I hold my breath when the phone lights up

Hoping it’s you, knowing it’s not

I’m screaming but I’m still unheard

Tripping over all my broken words

I’m hollowed out, yeah I feel it burn

Trying to remember what I was worth

I’m still aching when the night comes down

When the house is quiet and you’re not around

I swear I’m fine, but it’s just a lie

I tell myself so I can survive

If I disappear, would you notice then?

Or would I just fade into who I’ve been?

I’m tired of holding everything inside

I’m tired of being the “I’m okay” guy

I’m fading…

I’m bruised…

I’m unheard…

Still hollowed, still still aching for you

I’m screaming but I’m still unheard

Bleeding truth between every verse

I’m hollowed out, but I still stay

Still hoping it won’t hurt this way

I’m still aching, but I’m breathing now

Even if I don’t know how

If I disappear, don’t pretend

You didn’t see me fading in the end