I’m fading in the hallway lights again
Shoes by the door, but I don’t know where I’ve been
My heart’s bruised from learning how to pretend
Laughing at jokes that I don’t get in the end
I keep my head down, counting every crack
Every word you said that I can’t take back
I talk to the ceiling like it talks to me
Feels safer than saying what you actually mean
I tried to be loud, tried to be right
But I’m always the ghost in the room at night
I’m screaming but I’m still unheard
Choking on all the things I never said
I’m hollowed out, yeah I feel it burn
Trying to feel something instead
I’m still-aching when your name comes up
Like a wound I never learned to cover up
I swear I’m fine, but it’s just a lie
I tell myself so I can sleep tonight
The mirror knows me better than my friends
It sees the parts of me I try to bend
Every promise written in my skin
Wearing regrets like they’re stitched in
I replay moments I should’ve let die
Every “I’m okay” that was really a cry
You said “it’ll pass,” I said “yeah, maybe”
But I’m stuck in the same damn place lately
I hold my breath when the phone lights up
Hoping it’s you, knowing it’s not
I’m screaming but I’m still unheard
Tripping over all my broken words
I’m hollowed out, yeah I feel it burn
Trying to remember what I was worth
I’m still aching when the night comes down
When the house is quiet and you’re not around
I swear I’m fine, but it’s just a lie
I tell myself so I can survive
If I disappear, would you notice then?
Or would I just fade into who I’ve been?
I’m tired of holding everything inside
I’m tired of being the “I’m okay” guy
I’m fading…
I’m bruised…
I’m unheard…
Still hollowed, still still aching for you
I’m screaming but I’m still unheard
Bleeding truth between every verse
I’m hollowed out, but I still stay
Still hoping it won’t hurt this way
I’m still aching, but I’m breathing now
Even if I don’t know how
If I disappear, don’t pretend
You didn’t see me fading in the end
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