Awareness

I’ve become so self aware that it’s lowkey destroying me.

I’m over analyzing everything to the point where I don’t feel anything anymore

Can’t even be mad — ‘Cause I get it,

Everyone’s got their own side.

Can’t even be sad —‘cause I know deep down, nothing really matters. Life’s kinda absurd…whatever happens, just happens. I thought becoming “aware” would bring me peace or happiness…

But now I just feel numb

It’s like I’m stuck in my own head.

Just hoping something—anything—will make me feel again. Or maybe secretly wishing I could unlearn it all, go back to being the old me!

Who felt too much, but at least felt something :)