Hopeless Confessions

Hopeless
Terrified
Ashamed 
Confused
I thought for sure you'd want this
But i don't want to trap you
Into something you don't want 
I'm so lost without you

I don't want to need you
But I do.
I dont want to want you
But I do

I don't to want to miss you
But I do
I don't want to Love you
But I do

It's to late for me
And I hate that I have to go through this
Life for a Life
So take mine God
For I'm a sinner
And not worth Jesus's sacrifice
Please take my Life

Lust of my heart
When I want to be pure
Im drawn to you
To the way you speak 
The way you smell
The way your built

So strong
In your arms

I never want to leave your arms

Trapped in your arms
But I never want to leave

I'm fighting between wanting to stay forever
And escaping into the unknown


I thought of our baby  the other day
who I'll never get to meet....
Our kids will never meet


All because, together we are not
But just complicated


Yeah 
I go around telling people of our future...
My boyfriends son will be coming more often.ll
Do you?
I see us
I do
You holding me, washing dishes with me.
Cheering for our kids
Praying with me

When you held my hand and told me you wanted me forever
I knew what you meant
But Im broken, unworthy
Yet yours
But Im stained, unclean, impure
And yet you look at me with those full eyes
Dressing me
Making me feel like the most beautiful women
Beautiful woman
And now I don't know who I am anymore
Without you

blues, soul, r&b, female