Hopeless Confessions

Hopeless

Terrified

Ashamed

Confused

I thought for sure you'd want this

But i don't want to trap you

Into something you don't want

I'm so lost without you

I don't want to need you

But I do.

I dont want to want you

But I do

I don't to want to miss you

But I do

I don't want to Love you

But I do

It's to late for me

And I hate that I have to go through this

Life for a Life

So take mine God

For I'm a sinner

And not worth Jesus's sacrifice

Please take my Life

Lust of my heart

When I want to be pure

Im drawn to you

To the way you speak

The way you smell

The way your built

So strong

In your arms

I never want to leave your arms

Trapped in your arms

But I never want to leave

I'm fighting between wanting to stay forever

And escaping into the unknown

I thought of our baby the other day

who I'll never get to meet....

Our kids will never meet

All because, together we are not

But just complicated

Yeah

I go around telling people of our future...

My boyfriends son will be coming more often.ll

Do you?

I see us

I do

You holding me, washing dishes with me.

Cheering for our kids

Praying with me

When you held my hand and told me you wanted me forever

I knew what you meant

But Im broken, unworthy

Yet yours

But Im stained, unclean, impure

And yet you look at me with those full eyes

Dressing me

Making me feel like the most beautiful women

Beautiful woman

And now I don't know who I am anymore

Without you