Verse 1
I don’t know where the poison lives,
or why it spills from me.
I swear I try to close the wound,
but it still bleeds on everything.
I wear regret like body armor,
it rattles when I breathe.
I keep on lighting fires
and calling it warmth I need.
Pre-Chorus
And every “sorry” tastes like ash,
another bridge I’ve burned.
My hands keep breaking what they touch,
and I never seem to learn.
Chorus (Explosive)
Maybe they’re all better without me,
maybe love is safer when I leave.
Maybe the ghost of me hurts less
than the living thing I keep.
I don’t know why the hurt keeps winning,
why the damage sings in harmony.
If I disappeared tomorrow…
would the world finally feel some peace?
Verse 2
I’m terrified the fault line
runs deeper than my veins.
That kindness is a language
my heart just can’t translate.
I look into their shattered eyes,
see the storm I’ve made.
I’m scared I am the monster
that empathy tried to save.
Pre-Chorus
I want to rip the wiring out,
rebuild what’s wrong in me.
But hope keeps slipping through the cracks
like a promise I can’t keep.
Chorus (Raw, louder, more desperate)
Maybe they’re all better without me,
maybe love is safer when I leave.
Maybe the echo of me bruises less
than the presence I repeat.
I don’t know why the pain keeps driving,
why the ruin hums so naturally.
If I disappeared forever…
would their hearts stop breaking because of me?
Bridge (Soft at first, clean guitar, whispered)
I don’t want the ending to be silence,
I don’t want my name to mean goodbye…
But if staying means destruction,
maybe disappearing is my last act of trying to be kind.
Breakdown (Heavy, chugging, screamed)
I DON’T KNOW WHY I HURT—
I DON’T KNOW WHY I STAY—
I DON’T KNOW IF I’M FIXABLE,
OR IF I’M JUST IN THE WAY!
Final Chorus (Huge but hollow, emotional)
Maybe they’re all better without me,
maybe love is quieter when I’m gone.
Maybe the absence of me heals the things
my existence leaned on wrong.
I don’t know why the hurt keeps choosing me,
why the chaos feels like home to be…
But if I walked into the nothing—
would they finally stop hurting from me?
Outro (Slow fade, broken, defeated)
If I leave… will it finally stop?
If I’m gone… will the hurting stop?
If I’m gone…
