Slow Poison

Red light bleeding through the blinds

You don’t touch me, but I bend

Your shadow knows me better

Than anyone I’ve let in

Every breath feels borrowed

Every thought is you

I don’t pray for mercy

I just wait for the truth

I hear you in the silence

Like a sin I never named

I know exactly what you are

Still I let you stay

My soul is calling under water

Drowning in your pull

All I crave is your poison

Slow and beautiful

That blue in your eyes keeps flashing

Got me locked, got me loose

On my knees in the quiet

I don’t fight it, I choose

Cold skin, static in the air

Every look feels ceremonial

You don’t promise anything

You just make it inevitable

I wear your want like armour

Let it cut me clean

If this is how I disappear

At least I felt something

Say my name like a warning

Say it like a sin

I don’t need forgiveness

I just need you in

My soul is calling under water

Drowning in your pull

All I crave is your poison

Slow and beautiful

That blue in your eyes keeps flashing

Got me locked, got me loose

On my knees in the quiet

I don’t fight it, I choose

(half-whispered, almost spoken)

Don’t save me

Don’t pretend

If you’re the end

Let it end

(beat drops to a hum, breath audible)

My soul still calling from the deep end

Every time you move

I don’t want heaven, I want the damage

I want the truth in you

That blue in your eyes owns the moment

I give in, I lose

On my knees in the quiet

If it’s poison… I choose

Say my name

Low and slow

I was never meant to let you go