I learned people don’t always leave loud
Sometimes they just don’t come back
I kept my pain real quiet
‘Cause I didn’t wanna be “too much”
But every time you said “I’m fine”
I felt my chest start giving up
You held me like I was fragile
Then treated me like I was strong
So I kept bleeding in private
Pretending nothing was wrong
I was scared if I broke in front of you
You’d finally see the mess
So I swallowed my tears like poison
And let them rot in my chest
I DON’T WANNA BE TOUGH
I JUST WANNA BE ENOUGH
I DON’T WANNA BE A LESSON
I WANNA BE LOVED
EVERY TIME I GET CLOSE
I FEEL MYSELF DETACH
I KEEP LOSING PIECES OF ME
TRYNA KEEP YOU INTACT
WHY DO I LOVE
LIKE I’M MEANT TO LOSE?
WHY DOES MY HEART
ALWAYS OVERPROVE?
I GAVE YOU ME
NOT THE BEST PARTS
THE UGLY
THE PANIC
THE SHAKING DARK
YOU SAID “STAY”
BUT YOU MEANT “DON’T FALL”
NOW I’M SCREAMING AT WALLS
THAT DON’T HEAR ME AT ALL
(BACHATA FEEL — ENGLISH, SAD DANCE, EMO ROMANCE)
Slow dance with the thought of you
Barefoot, spinning in regret
I still move how you taught me
Even though you ain’t here yet
My hands remember your waist
My heart remember the lie
That love was supposed to save me
Not teach me how to say goodbye
God bless America
But fuck the monopoly
They raise us on broken promises
Then blame our anxiety
They tell us “man up, don’t feel”
While they profit off our despair
So we numb ourselves with love
‘Cause hope ain’t never fair
I don’t hate where I’m from
I hate how it made me cope
Turned affection into weakness
And survival into hope
We love like it’s our last breath
‘Cause tomorrow never feels promised
We hold on till it hurts
Then wonder why we feel demolished
HuuuuUUUUUH
IF I LOVE AGAIN
I’LL WARN YOU FIRST
MY HEART DON’T BREAK CLEAN
IT BURSTS
I’LL HOLD YOU LIKE
I’M TERRIFIED
‘CAUSE EVERYONE I LOVE
EVENTUALLY LEAVES OR DIES
Slow dance with me one last time
Even if it’s just in my head
I don’t need forever anymore
I just don’t wanna feel dead
Like my body still breathing
But my soul stuck behind
I still laugh in public
Still show up, still try
But when the room get quiet
Death start talking in my mind
Like it know every scar I hide
It sit beside me like a shadow
Not violent, just calm
Saying “you don’t gotta disappear”
“Just stop being so strong”
I DON’T WANNA DIE
I JUST WANNA FEEL ALIVE
I DON’T WANNA BE A MEMORY
I WANNA FEEL INSIDE
BUT DEATH GOT A SOFT VOICE
WHEN YOU BEEN HURT TOO LONG
IT DON’T THREATEN
IT CONVINCES
LIKE A SAD, FAMILIAR SONG
WHY AM I STILL HERE
IF I FEEL SO GONE?
WHY DOES STAYING
FEEL LIKE I’M DOING SOMETHING WRONG?
I FIGHT EVERY DAY
JUST TO FEEL OK
AND DEATH JUST WATCHES
LIKE “TAKE YOUR TIME
I’LL WAIT”
Slow dance with the ache in my chest
Spinning circles, counting regrets
Life keeps pulling me forward
Death keeps saying “you can rest”
I sway between hope and exhaustion
Between tomorrow and “not today”
aaaaaAAAAHHH
OOOooouuuuuUUUH
SoviSilentHyena
