I learned people don’t always leave loud Sometimes they just don’t come back I kept my pain real quiet ‘Cause I didn’t wanna be “too much” But every time you said “I’m fine” I felt my chest start giving up You held me like I was fragile Then treated me like I was strong So I kept bleeding in private Pretending nothing was wrong I was scared if I broke in front of you You’d finally see the mess So I swallowed my tears like poison And let them rot in my chest I DON’T WANNA BE TOUGH I JUST WANNA BE ENOUGH I DON’T WANNA BE A LESSON I WANNA BE LOVED EVERY TIME I GET CLOSE I FEEL MYSELF DETACH I KEEP LOSING PIECES OF ME TRYNA KEEP YOU INTACT WHY DO I LOVE LIKE I’M MEANT TO LOSE? WHY DOES MY HEART ALWAYS OVERPROVE? I GAVE YOU ME NOT THE BEST PARTS THE UGLY THE PANIC THE SHAKING DARK YOU SAID “STAY” BUT YOU MEANT “DON’T FALL” NOW I’M SCREAMING AT WALLS THAT DON’T HEAR ME AT ALL (BACHATA FEEL — ENGLISH, SAD DANCE, EMO ROMANCE) Slow dance with the thought of you Barefoot, spinning in regret I still move how you taught me Even though you ain’t here yet My hands remember your waist My heart remember the lie That love was supposed to save me Not teach me how to say goodbye God bless America But fuck the monopoly They raise us on broken promises Then blame our anxiety They tell us “man up, don’t feel” While they profit off our despair So we numb ourselves with love ‘Cause hope ain’t never fair I don’t hate where I’m from I hate how it made me cope Turned affection into weakness And survival into hope We love like it’s our last breath ‘Cause tomorrow never feels promised We hold on till it hurts Then wonder why we feel demolished HuuuuUUUUUH IF I LOVE AGAIN I’LL WARN YOU FIRST MY HEART DON’T BREAK CLEAN IT BURSTS I’LL HOLD YOU LIKE I’M TERRIFIED ‘CAUSE EVERYONE I LOVE EVENTUALLY LEAVES OR DIES Slow dance with me one last time Even if it’s just in my head I don’t need forever anymore I just don’t wanna feel dead Like my body still breathing But my soul stuck behind I still laugh in public Still show up, still try But when the room get quiet Death start talking in my mind Like it know every scar I hide It sit beside me like a shadow Not violent, just calm Saying “you don’t gotta disappear” “Just stop being so strong” I DON’T WANNA DIE I JUST WANNA FEEL ALIVE I DON’T WANNA BE A MEMORY I WANNA FEEL INSIDE BUT DEATH GOT A SOFT VOICE WHEN YOU BEEN HURT TOO LONG IT DON’T THREATEN IT CONVINCES LIKE A SAD, FAMILIAR SONG WHY AM I STILL HERE IF I FEEL SO GONE? WHY DOES STAYING FEEL LIKE I’M DOING SOMETHING WRONG? I FIGHT EVERY DAY JUST TO FEEL OK AND DEATH JUST WATCHES LIKE “TAKE YOUR TIME I’LL WAIT” Slow dance with the ache in my chest Spinning circles, counting regrets Life keeps pulling me forward Death keeps saying “you can rest” I sway between hope and exhaustion Between tomorrow and “not today” aaaaaAAAAHHH OOOooouuuuuUUUH

Lov n war