Lov n war

I learned people don’t always leave loud

Sometimes they just don’t come back

I kept my pain real quiet

‘Cause I didn’t wanna be “too much”

But every time you said “I’m fine”

I felt my chest start giving up

You held me like I was fragile

Then treated me like I was strong

So I kept bleeding in private

Pretending nothing was wrong

I was scared if I broke in front of you

You’d finally see the mess

So I swallowed my tears like poison

And let them rot in my chest

I DON’T WANNA BE TOUGH

I JUST WANNA BE ENOUGH

I DON’T WANNA BE A LESSON

I WANNA BE LOVED

EVERY TIME I GET CLOSE

I FEEL MYSELF DETACH

I KEEP LOSING PIECES OF ME

TRYNA KEEP YOU INTACT

WHY DO I LOVE

LIKE I’M MEANT TO LOSE?

WHY DOES MY HEART

ALWAYS OVERPROVE?

I GAVE YOU ME

NOT THE BEST PARTS

THE UGLY

THE PANIC

THE SHAKING DARK

YOU SAID “STAY”

BUT YOU MEANT “DON’T FALL”

NOW I’M SCREAMING AT WALLS

THAT DON’T HEAR ME AT ALL

(BACHATA FEEL — ENGLISH, SAD DANCE, EMO ROMANCE)

Slow dance with the thought of you

Barefoot, spinning in regret

I still move how you taught me

Even though you ain’t here yet

My hands remember your waist

My heart remember the lie

That love was supposed to save me

Not teach me how to say goodbye

God bless America

But fuck the monopoly

They raise us on broken promises

Then blame our anxiety

They tell us “man up, don’t feel”

While they profit off our despair

So we numb ourselves with love

‘Cause hope ain’t never fair

I don’t hate where I’m from

I hate how it made me cope

Turned affection into weakness

And survival into hope

We love like it’s our last breath

‘Cause tomorrow never feels promised

We hold on till it hurts

Then wonder why we feel demolished

HuuuuUUUUUH

IF I LOVE AGAIN

I’LL WARN YOU FIRST

MY HEART DON’T BREAK CLEAN

IT BURSTS

I’LL HOLD YOU LIKE

I’M TERRIFIED

‘CAUSE EVERYONE I LOVE

EVENTUALLY LEAVES OR DIES

Slow dance with me one last time

Even if it’s just in my head

I don’t need forever anymore

I just don’t wanna feel dead

Like my body still breathing

But my soul stuck behind

I still laugh in public

Still show up, still try

But when the room get quiet

Death start talking in my mind

Like it know every scar I hide

It sit beside me like a shadow

Not violent, just calm

Saying “you don’t gotta disappear”

“Just stop being so strong”

I DON’T WANNA DIE

I JUST WANNA FEEL ALIVE

I DON’T WANNA BE A MEMORY

I WANNA FEEL INSIDE

BUT DEATH GOT A SOFT VOICE

WHEN YOU BEEN HURT TOO LONG

IT DON’T THREATEN

IT CONVINCES

LIKE A SAD, FAMILIAR SONG

WHY AM I STILL HERE

IF I FEEL SO GONE?

WHY DOES STAYING

FEEL LIKE I’M DOING SOMETHING WRONG?

I FIGHT EVERY DAY

JUST TO FEEL OK

AND DEATH JUST WATCHES

LIKE “TAKE YOUR TIME

I’LL WAIT”

Slow dance with the ache in my chest

Spinning circles, counting regrets

Life keeps pulling me forward

Death keeps saying “you can rest”

I sway between hope and exhaustion

Between tomorrow and “not today”

aaaaaAAAAHHH

OOOooouuuuuUUUH