[Verse 1]
You text
"I'm sorry"
Like a code word
I say "It's okay"
Though it still burns
Friends say "you gotta leave"
I just change the subject
Turn the story sideways
Make it all look smaller
[Pre-Chorus]
You say I'm overthinking
Till I believe it too
I keep explaining bruises
Only I can see from you
[Chorus]
You are the habit I keep choosing
Knowing every time I'm losing
I hold the match to my own skin
Just to feel your fire again
I am the one who leaves the door open
Standing in the smoke
Still hoping
You never change
I never learn
You are the habit
And I still return
[Verse 2]
You love how I laugh
When I'm half-crying
You call it "just us"
When it's gaslighting
I swear I packed last night
Keys pressed in my palm
But your voice in my voicemail
Said my name
I dissolved
[Pre-Chorus]
You say I'm "so dramatic"
I start to play it down
Call it "rough patch
" "bad week"
As I'm slowly drowning out
[Chorus]
[Bridge]
How do I miss
What tears me apart?
Why do I guard
The thief of my heart?
I put my suitcase
Back on the shelf
Saving everyone but myself
[Chorus]