[Verse 1]
I been tryna keep steady
White mug, cold coffee on the desk, hands sweaty
Little list of the things that I never say
Fold it up, tuck it in, tell myself "One day"
Quiet room, but my thoughts get loud
Little kid in my chest tryna scream through the crowd
I breathe in, breathe out, counting my ribs
Tracing every little scar that I never admit
[Chorus]
I been losing control in the middle of the calm
Shaking like a storm in a Sunday psalm
Fighting with the ghosts that I fed too long
Till I learn how to rest in a world gone wrong
Yeah, I find my peace in the middle of it
Heart still racing, but I'm living in it
Not above, not below, just a bridge to cross
Finding peace in the middle of the chaos (hey)
[Verse 2]
Talk sharp to myself like an old rival
Every mirror on the wall like a new trial
Every shadow that I cast tryna pull me back
Whisper, "You ain't really built to survive impact"
I was raised on "be quiet, be fine"
Smiled through the pressure, pressed teeth to the grind
Now the mask don't fit, and the seams all split
And the voice in my head says, "We done with this"
[Chorus]
I been losing control in the middle of the calm
Shaking like a storm in a Sunday psalm
Fighting with the ghosts that I fed too long
Till I learn how to rest in a world gone wrong
Yeah, I find my peace in the middle of it
Heart still racing, but I'm living in it
Not above, not below, just a bridge to cross
Finding peace in the middle of the chaos
[Bridge]
Alright then, let it all come, I ain't ducking (nah)
Every fear that I feed turn to something
If I starve it with the truth, will it crumble in my palm?
Will the quake in my chest turn a heartbeat calm?
I been running from the waves, now they over my head
Either drown in the doubt, or I learn how to tread
So I talk to my rage like, "I see you there"
You ain't driving this car, you just breathe my air
[Explosive Chorus]
I been losing control, I been losing my mind (yeah)
Bare hands on the wheel while it skid out of line
Every demon that I fed now he banging on the door
But I ain't on the floor, I ain't begging anymore
I scream, "Come get me, I ain't backing away!"
Chest wide, eyes wide, let it all hit today
If the world gotta burn for this numb to stop
Let it burn, let it burn till the locks all drop (woah)
I find my peace in the middle of it
Throat still raw, but I'm singing in it
Not above, not below, just a bridge to cross
Finding peace in the middle of the chaos
[Outro]
Now the room's gone quiet, same old chair
Same old mug, cold ring, same air
Difference is I don't flinch when the dark walks in
I just nod like a friend I've been living with
I been losing control, but I'm losing the fear
Let the tremor in my hands be the truth this year
If the storm never stops, I ain't calling it loss
It's just peace in the middle of the chaos (soft)
(yeah)