Chasing Quiet

Intro (spoken / soft)

I don’t think people understand what it’s like
To want to focus… and can’t
To want to be calm… and can’t
It’s like my brain got 100 TVs on
And I can’t find the remote

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Verse 1

When I was young they said I talk too much
Couldn’t sit still, couldn’t focus up
Books open but my mind would run
Teacher talk but I heard none

Always told I wasn’t trying hard
But I was fighting battles in my thoughts
Every test felt like a war
Every failure kept a score

I start things I don’t finish
Dream big but I get lost in minutes
Got a motor in my brain that never shuts off
Even when I’m tired I can’t turn thoughts off

People think I’m lazy, they don’t see the fight
Just trying to do normal things right
Simple things feel like a mountain to climb
When your own brain working against you all the time

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Chorus

I’m chasing quiet, I’m chasing peace
Trying to slow down what’s inside of me
My mind runs circles, I can’t find sleep
Feels like my thoughts got a hold on me

I’m not lazy, I’m just wired this way
I fight my brain every single day
If there’s a calm, I’ll find someday
I’ve been chasing quiet in the rain

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Verse 2 (faster)

Overthink everything, every word I said
Play conversations back inside my head
Every mistake turn into regret
My brain don’t forgive, my brain don’t forget

Start one thing then I start another
Half done dreams stacked on each other
I got goals, I got plans, I got drive
But my mind got its own plans for my life

Forget what I’m saying while I’m talking
Lose my keys while I’m walking
Phone in my hand and I still can’t find it
Story of my life, man, I’m always behind it

But you don’t see the war in my head
You just see the results instead
You see late, messy, distracted, stressed
You don’t see me trying my best

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Bridge (slow emotional)

I’m so tired of fighting my mind
Feels like I’m running but I’m stuck in time
I just want quiet for one damn night
I just want to feel like I’m doing life right

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Final Chorus

I’m chasing quiet, I’m chasing peace
Trying to become the man I want to be
My mind runs miles when I need sleep
Feels like my thoughts got a hold on me

But I won’t quit, no I won’t break
Even if it’s one step every day
If calm exists, I’ll find my way
I’ve been chasing quiet in the rain

Emotional rap cinematic beat 70 bpm, male