Hardened

Maybe it's time I said goodbye

To all the habits and rituals that define

Everything that's ever been wrong with me

Honestly, it's all I ever see

Tell me there's a better way to breathe

There's never enough air flowing through my body when it's weak

Can't help but compare my wary woes til the garden grows my regrets from the dirt

Here I lay with my head open and aired out

My thoughts went spinning towards the great beyond but broke down before the first word

My malice born from angry thoughts of what was done to earn the scorn

Why do I stutter and shake whenever there's a hard decision to make

It's like I'm my own worst enemy

Burn down bridges for the ones I love

I can still tether the past but only in moments that don't last but they sing to me in my sleep

The three hours it's seems in a week

I've learned the deeper you dig the harder it gets

Clay raw from scraping an exit from Hell

My soul keeps fighting but what for in the end

Alone in the darkness eyes fallen again

The reaper seals the date with a swift swipe of his blade

I saw freedom and turned away just to stand here today

A BROKEN MAN FOR SURE

BUT A MAN BUILT TO ENDURE

I am living for purpose

A way out of pain

No one could deserve this

But I am still to blame