Verse 1
I learned the shape of what to say
Before I learned what I meant
I started arriving as someone else
And calling it being present
There’s a version of me that still waits
For a feeling to finish the thought
But time keeps handing me outcomes
I don’t remember wanting this much
[Pre-Chorus – melody lifts, unresolved]
I thought the change would announce itself
But it just kept happening quietly
Chorus
I kept what stayed
I released what didn’t argue
Somehow I’m full
And still reaching
I’m standing where I said I would be
It just doesn’t feel like arrival
I gained a name that answers quickly
And lost the question behind it
[Post-Chorus – instrumental]
[Soft vocalization, no words]
Verse 2
Some connections thinned without warning
Not broken, just less defined
No final sentence to quote later
Just pauses that never replied
I learned how to hold things gently
So nothing could see me shake
I call it balance, I call it control
But it feels like learning how to wait
[Pre-Chorus – harmony enters briefly]
There was a version of hope I trusted
That didn’t need evidence
Chorus
I kept what stayed
I released what grew heavier
Somehow I’m steady
And still drifting
I’m wearing the life I was given
Like it fits from a distance
I gained a future I can maintain
And misplaced my resistance
[Bridge – minimal, abstract]
[Drop to single sustained chord]
If this is growth
Why does it feel like subtraction
If this is clarity
Why do I miss the blur
I don’t ache the way I used to
I don’t glow either
[Melody swells slightly, then pulls back]
Final Chorus
I kept what stayed
Even when it felt smaller
I learned how to last
Without asking
I’m standing inside the result
Of every careful decision
I gained the strength to keep going
And lost the sound of my own permission
[Outro – unresolved, fading]
[Instruments fall away one by one]
Maybe this is the point
Or maybe it’s just the middle
And I’m learning how to live
Without a signal
[End – silence held]
