But against my will

Verse 1

I wake up tired of just survive

Of prove that I exist

Like I’m worth the air I’m breathing

But still i have to fight for it

I live in the long kind of middle

Where nothing ends, nothing begins

Time passes through me quietly

Like it never meant to stay in

Pre c

I feel borrowed, thin, untrue

Like I’m wearing someone else’s skin

I don’t chase the future anymore

I just trace the floor I’m standing in

Chorus

I am not asleep

I am not awake

I’m stitched together

By my mistakes

I’m not dead

But I’m not alive

I learned how to stay

Not how to survive

And I am still here

Against my will

Verse 2

I am what’s left when hope evacuates

The fracture in the fact

Not whole enough to break

My heart still knows the rhythm

But it’s playing for no crowd

The scream stays on the inside

Even when it’s loud

Pre-Chorus

Feelings come with distance

Like they’re secondhand

A life I’m no longer attending

But still forced to understand

Chorus

I am not asleep

I am not awake

I’m stitched together

By my mistakes

I’m not dead

But I’m not alive

I learned how to stay

Not how to survive

And I am still here

Against my will

Still here

(But against my )

Don’t tell me it gets better

Don’t tell me I’m strong

The weather wasn’t mine to choose

I’ve just been in it too long

I’m not asking for a new life

I just don’t want this one right here

I didn’t fail at leaving

I just never learned how to go

Final Chorus

I am not asleep

I am not awake

I’m stitched together

By my mistakes

I’m not dead

But I’m not alive

I learned how to stay

Not how to survive

And I am still here

Against my will

Outro

I learned how to stay

How to move along,

But not how to survive

But Im still here

But Against my will