**Verse 1**
Suitcase by the doorway
Bills sitting on the table
Everybody think I got it handled
‘Cause somehow I’m still stable
But nobody see the nights
I stare at ceilings questioning fate
Wondering how I became
A grown woman still feeling misplaced
I had plans so specific
Thought life would move in lines
Thought love was something safe
If your intentions were right
But people change, and I changed too
Trying to survive it all
Now I barely recognize
The girl I used to call strong
**Pre-Chorus**
And some days I look around
At everything I built
And still feel empty standing in it
**Chorus**
Like… how did I get here?
How this become my life?
Everybody needing pieces of me
While I’m just trying to survive
If you told me four years ago
I’d be this confused inside
I would’ve laughed so hard
Said “you got the wrong life”
Now I’m older, still healing
Still trying to become
Somebody I actually recognize
When the day is done
**Verse 2**
I met love that looked promising
Then watched it fall apart
Twice I gave my whole self
Twice it left marks on my heart
And maybe I ignored red flags
Trying so bad to be chosen
Now I carry lessons
I was never prepared to hold with me
Still…
I achieved things I prayed for
Made it farther than they thought
Even through grief so heavy
I could barely process loss
Lost the person who knew me best
And the world ain’t felt the same since
Now I walk around smiling
With heartbreak hidden in the stitching
**Bridge**
Different country, different weather
Still trying to adjust
Friends check in and keep me grounded
When life gets too much
And I thank God for them
‘Cause some nights get dark
When it’s just me and my thoughts
Trying to figure out where to start
**Final Chorus**
Maybe everybody secretly grieving
The life they thought they’d have
Maybe growing older really means
Learning how to adapt
And maybe there’s still beauty waiting
Past all this confusion and fear
But tonight I’m still sitting with
“How the hell did I get here?”
CookieUnicorn
