[Verse 1]
You flinch when I get honest
Like the truth still burns your tongue
You say
"People leave
That's the pattern"
So you sleep with your shoes still on
I keep folding up my chaos
Into shapes that look like calm
Holding out this shaking hand
You just stare and say
"What’s wrong?"
[Chorus]
How do I love a porcelain heart
That’s sure my fingers only drop it?
How do I stay when you’re convinced
Every promise has a profit?
I’m trying to find myself in this
But I’m lost inside your guard
I’m scared of loving you like this
And you’re scared of love at all
[Verse 2]
You laugh when I say "future"
Like I told a cruel joke
You trace your faded scars
Change the subject
Change your coat
I’ve been digging through my shadows
So I don’t turn into smoke
But every time I move in closer
You reload another "no"
[Chorus]
How do I love a porcelain heart
That’s sure my fingers only drop it?
How do I stay when you’re convinced
Every promise has a profit?
I’m trying to find myself in this
But I’m lost inside your guard
I’m scared of loving you like this
And you’re scared of love at all
[Bridge]
Maybe I’m too soft for your disaster (yeah)
Maybe you’re too sharp for all my doubt
I’m out here learning how to trust my own reflection
You’re still looking for the quickest way out
If I choose me
Is that betrayal?
If I choose you
Do I disappear?
I’m standing in the doorway with my suitcase
Full of every silent year
[Chorus]
How do I love a porcelain heart
That’s sure my fingers only drop it?
How do I stay when you’re convinced
Every promise has a profit?
I’m trying to find myself in this
In the echo of your walls
I’m scared of loving you like this
So I might not stay to fall
[Outro]
You say
"Don’t trust anyone"
I whisper
"I’m someone too"
If I ever learn to love myself
Will there be space left for you?