[Verse 1]
I put the bottle down, hands still shake
Still hear my old name in the bathroom sink
I used to chase that rush like a runaway train
Now I chase clean air, but it don’t hit the same
Clock on the wall keep judge and glare
Cold water face, but the hurt stay there
My phone still buzz, old numbers call
I let it ring out, let it hit the hall
I’m trying to pray, trying to breathe
Trying to live when the numb won’t leave
I want the truth, but the truth cut deep
So I stare at the floor and count my beats
[Pre-Chorus]
I’m sober now
But the ghost still talk
I want out
Still my feet won’t walk
[Chorus]
I want the high gone
I want the high gone
It takes the pain, then it takes me on
I want the high gone
I want the high gone
Need to feel whole when the noise is gone
[Verse 2]
Seven days clean, but my mind still wild
Old scars talking like a reckless child
I see my friends laugh from the other side
And part of me miss how I used to hide
Mirror got cracks, but I stand in it
Hands in my pockets, I don’t trust my fit
Every good thought come with a cost
Still I choose the wound over being lost
I been down bad, I been on the edge
I been one step from the same old binge
But I text one name when the room get cold
Say, “Talk me back, I’m trying to hold”
[Pre-Chorus]
I’m sober now
But I’m not at ease
I want out
Still I beg and plead
[Chorus]
I want the high gone
I want the high gone
It takes the pain, then it takes me on
I want the high gone
I want the high gone
Need to feel whole when the noise is gone
[Bridge]
If I fall, let me fall toward light
If I break, let me break this night
I don’t need forever, just one more chance
One clean breath, one honest stance
I’m still here
I’m still here
No more running from the fear
[Chorus]
I want the high gone
I want the high gone
It takes the pain, then it takes me on
I want the high gone
I want the high gone
Need to feel whole when the noise is gone