[Intro]
Every time life cut too deep to speak,
I chased numbness for a couple more weeks.
Didn’t wanna feel, didn’t wanna explain,
So I let the high drown out my brain.
[Verse 1]
I got high when it hurt, when the pressure too strong,
When the days felt jagged and the nights too long.
When the phone rang late and I knew bad news,
When life gave choices I didn’t wanna choose.
I got lit just to mute that sound,
That pounding heart and that merry-go-round.
Call it coping, call it weak, call it dumb,
But it kept my soul from goin’ fully numb.
Till one day I saw in the mirror real clear,
The same dead stare that I used to fear.
I saw the ghost of every friend I’d lost,
Staring at me like “You know the cost.”
[Hook]
Yeah I got high when it hurts, that was my way,
But that same damn path almost took me away.
Now I stand in the pain with my eyes unclosed,
Feelin’ every cut but I still stay composed.
[Verse 2]
Now when it hurts, I let it burn slow,
Let the ache in my chest be a signal to grow.
Still see the bottle when the world gets tight,
Still hear the call of that endless night.
But I choose clear lungs, heavy thoughts, no veil,
I choose the long fight, not the short-term bail.
Every time I resist, I reclaim my name,
Piece by piece, I step out of that flame.
I ain’t perfect, some days I slip in my head,
But I don’t slip my body back toward the dead.
I live with the noise that I used to drown,
Now I wear it like a half-bent crown.
[Bridge]
Pain ain't proof that I’m weak or cursed,
It’s proof that I lived through the absolute worst.
If I can feel this and still not fold,
Then my heart more diamond than what I was told.
[Hook]
Yeah I got high when it hurts, that was my way,
But that same damn path almost took me away.
Now I stand in the pain with my eyes unclosed,
Feelin’ every cut but I still stay composed.
[Outro]
Hurt don’t own me, it just sharpens my sight,
I survived my crutches, now I walk in the light.
Master Jester — I lived that curse,
Now I’m stronger than the high I used to nurse.
