Shadows of a Father

Silent shadows, echoes of a past

Lost in the silence, how long does it last?

memories fade, yet somehow they stay

Whispered regrets in the light of day

Once I saw him as my best friend, close and true

Even when he was far, I knew my heart grew

A fractured picture, blurred lines of love and pain

Mad at Mom, I hid under her rain

Thought I understood, hid my tears in the night

In his absence, only shadows, no light

He was gone before I learned to say goodbye

Left me asking why, left me asking why

Time spun around, lives intertwined

Burning bridges, breaking ties

Hoping for a sign, a moment to heal

But all I felt was the cold and the real

Lost in the years, I couldn't find my way

Knocking on the door that never stayed

He returned, but never stayed in place

Leaving only memories, shadows erased

Oldest baby girl, reaching for what’s gone

Trying to hold on, though everything's wrong

Lost in the silence, love misunderstood

In the ashes of the past, I misunderstood

Addictions took me down the same path

Same shadows, same aftermath

Born from pain I couldn't see

Now I wonder, did he ever truly be?

Seeking his approval, craving the love

From a father I thought I knew enough

He died alone, in a empty home

Left behind the heart that he had sown

Quiet now, the house is cold

Stories of love, so seldom told

Oldest girl, but still a child

Walking through memories, meek and mild

He was my father, gone too soon

Lost in the space between the moon

Forever carrying what we missed

In the silence, I still exist