Departing

I opened my eyes wide but can barely see

The middle of the day as darkness envelops me

I listen hard with chaos all around

Things seem quiet I hear barely a sound

I want to panic but a switch flips inside

I remain pretty calm overall, im just along for the ride

Memories and visions begin to flood my brain

For the first time in months I forgot about all the pain

I become aware of many loose ends and issues needing attention

Its all too late now though leaving problems wasn't my intention

I know my family is present, I can feel their presence

Still i feel isolated and alone and intimacy so intense

Energy fades

Senses dull

A cascade of moments I suddenly recall

Relationships strained damaged and broken

People who cared with whom I've rarely spoken

Feeling calm tired and resolute

knowing im at my end is the only absolute

I feel a tear on my cheek as I think of my wife

No longer on the same path as she moves on with life

All the love I have given the great times we shared

All my mistakes bad judgement and times I should have cared

What did i accomplish did i do anything right

Will I be remembered for my worse moment or fight

My eyes grow too heavy there's nothing left now to keep

I let go of everyone and all things knowing this is the final time I'll sleep

Roses I grew will sit on top of my grave

There's one thing I take with me the love I received and I save

Energy fades

Senses dull

A cascade of moments I suddenly recall

Relationships strained damaged and broken

People who cared with whom I've rarely spoken

Feeling calm tired and resolute

knowing im at my end is the only absolute