The air grows thick, a knot begins to tie,
A simple word, a glance, and then I cry.
A whisper soft, a change I think I see,
The phantom limb of you abandoning me.
It starts so small, a seed of bitter dread,
Soon vines will grow and fill up all my head.
Oh, the hopeless weight, it crushes down my chest,
This fear of gone, it puts my soul to test.
My mind it races, painting scenes of pain,
And all the love I have feels lost in vain.
I freak out, yeah, the panic starts to climb,
Lost in the wreckage of a leaving time.
I cling too tight, I push you far away,
A desperate dance I play out every day.
I read the signs, invent them in the gloom,
Convincing myself that you'll leave me soon.
My reactions burn, a wildfire out of control,
And in the flames, I lose my fragile hold.
Oh, the hopeless weight, it crushes down my chest,
This fear of gone, it puts my soul to test.
My mind it races, painting scenes of pain,
And all the love I have feels lost in vain.
I freak out, yeah, the panic starts to climb,
Lost in the wreckage of a leaving time.
And then the words, they cut me like a knife,
"You're overreacting, it's just your life."
"You're being crazy, can't you just be calm?"
Each careless phrase becomes a stinging balm
That only fuels the fire in my core,
They can't see the monster knocking at my door.
Oh, the hopeless weight, it crushes down my chest,
This fear of gone, it puts my soul to test.
My mind it races, painting scenes of pain,
And all the love I have feels lost in vain
I freak out, yeah, the panic starts to climb,
Lost in the wreckage of a leaving time.
Invalidated, the feeling sinks so deep,
Another promise that I couldn't keep.
This fear of leaving, it consumes my soul,
Leaving me broken, losing all control.
And in the silence, the hopeless truth remains,
This fear of gone, it drives me to these pains.
AshOnEdge
