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Fifteen years ago, I was smaller than the world
Feet didn’t touch the ground, heart still curled
Didn’t know the weight that a memory could hold
Didn’t know a kid could feel that cold

Laughter in the daylight, silence at night
Smiling in the mirror, something wasn’t right
Learned how to hide it, learned how to stay strong
Even when the feeling said something was wrong

I grew up too fast, but time didn’t wait
Carried every second like it’s tied to my name

Now I’m older, but I still feel it
Every little crack, yeah I still conceal it
Fifteen years gone but it won’t let go
Still that same kid from so long ago
I built my walls just to feel safe
Learned how to smile with a hidden face
Now I’m older, yeah I’ve changed somehow
But I still remember who I was back then… and now

Used to count the days, wishing I’d escape
Dreaming of a life where I’d be okay
People saw the outside, never what was real
Didn’t hear the thoughts I was trying not to feel

Carried all the pressure like it’s mine to keep
Even taught myself not to cry or speak
Helped everybody else just to feel some worth
While I was getting lost in my own hurt

I don’t blame that kid, he did what he could
Turned pain into strength like nobody should

Now I’m older, but I still feel it
Every little scar, yeah I still conceal it
Fifteen years gone but it won’t erase
All the silent battles I had to face
I built my walls just to feel safe
Learned how to smile with a hidden face
Now I’m older, yeah I’ve changed somehow
But I still remember who I was back then… and now

And maybe I’m healing, just a little at a time
Learning I don’t have to leave myself behind
That kid in the mirror, yeah he’s still me
And maybe one day I’ll finally be free

Now I’m older… yeah I still feel it
But I’m learning slowly not to conceal it
Fifteen years later, I’m standing here
Still holding pain, but I face my fear
I built my walls, now I let them fall
Don’t have to be broken to feel it all
Now I’m older, I see it somehow…
I made it through then… I’m still here now

Sad
Rock