You Never Loved Me

You said you chose me

But no you didn’t

You chose convenience over commitment

I’m still hurting inside

I’ve beat myself up and cried

Each time you came back to me

It felt like our love survived

The truth is it kept me from being free

I keep falling back to where I was

I kept loving you all over again

I thought that loving is okay in pain

I’m tired of waking up in the middle of the night

Searching for you and for my light

You said your pride was your strength

But my love was mine

And now I’m suffering with the hurt you left behind

I’m battling these wars inside my mind

You never loved me

If you did then why am I the only one standing in the rain?

You never loved me

I wake up every morning trying to numb the pain

I faced my everyday holding back my tears

Facing the truth and feeling every fears

One day my mind and heart will think the same

You never loved me

And that’s why you never came

Your silence spoke louder than your words

Long distance just showed that we were strangers

How did we both get here?

I thought you were my best friend

My lover until the end

I saw a future with you

You said that too

But then I was worth less than dog shit on the side of the road

And said we were through

I’m tired of waking up in the middle of the night

Searching for you and for my light

You said your pride was your strength

But my love was mine

And now I’m suffering with the hurt you left behind

I’m battling these wars inside my mind

You never loved me

If you did then why am I the only one standing in the rain?

You never loved me

I wake up every morning trying to numb the pain

I faced my everyday holding back my tears

Facing the truth and feeling every fears

One day my mind and heart will think the same

You never loved me

And that’s why you never came

I know I’ll never love this way again

So I keep holding on until the hope is gone

Someday someone’s gonna love me

The way I wanted you to need me

One day I’ll forget about you

You’ll see I won’t even miss you

Someday, someday

You never loved me

If you did then why am I the only one standing in the rain?

You never loved me

I wake up every morning trying to numb the pain

I faced my everyday holding back my tears

Facing the truth and feeling every fears

One day my mind and heart will think the same

You never loved me

And that’s why you never came

We can’t be friends

I can’t even pretend with someone that I love

It might be okay for you, but not for me

So I’ll continue to love you from far away

Because I know you’ll never say

That you never loved me