Running away

[Intro] (Spoken / whispered)

Yeah…

It’s like every time I run, I’m just buildin’ my own coffin.

Tryin’ not to hurt them, but I’m cuttin’ my own heart out.

Listen.

I’ve been sprintin’ from the shadows, call it marathon of guilt,

Stackin’ walls around my soul ‘til the ceiling starts to tilt,

Thought I’d never heal, so I sealed every wound with steel,

But the colder I get, the less I even feel.

I torch bridges like they’re paper, thinkin’ flames’ll save my name,

But smoke just blinds me, can’t even see who’s left to blame,

I’m chasin’ empty highways, gas tank runnin’ fumes,

Every face in my rearview a ghost inside my room.

I was scared of the pain, scared of breakin’ more hearts,

So I vanished like a coward, tearin’ people apart,

Now I’m starin’ at obituaries, names that I knew,

Couldn’t pick up the phone, now it’s too late to tell the truth.

Hook] (Sung / melodic)

I burned every bridge just to feel safe inside,

But now I’m trapped alone with no place to hide,

All the time I missed, man, it’s killin’ my soul,

Tryin’ to save myself but the cost is control.

I ran away from pain, thought I’d never look back,

But every mile I ran was another heart attack,

Now I’m dyin’ inside from the life I reject,

And the ashes of the bridge is all that’s left.

Yeah, I’m a phantom with a pulse, a ghost with a beat,

Footsteps echo off the walls of this empty street,

Used to think my silence meant protectin’ them from harm,

But silence is a bullet and it’s piercin’ through their arms.

Aunt's call goes to voicemail, uncle's health fades out,

Homies gettin’ buried while I’m still playin’ the route,

I’m runnin’ from my demons but they jog at my speed,

And the finish line I’m crossin’ is the death of my need.

I’m addicted to escape like it’s heroin in veins,

But every track I lay is just a map of my shame,

Sayin’ “next time, next time” but the clock don’t wait,

And the reaper ain’t patient when he stands at the gate.

I burned every bridge just to feel safe inside,

But now I’m trapped alone with no place to hide,

All the time I missed, man, it’s killin’ my soul,

Tryin’ to save myself but the cost is control.

I ran away from pain, thought I’d never look back,

But every mile I ran was another heart attack,

Now I’m dyin’ inside from the life I reject,

And the ashes of the bridge is all that’s left.

I keep writin’ apologies on paper I don’t send,

Crumblin’ ‘em up, watch ‘em drift in the wind,

I thought if I stayed gone, they’d forget my mistakes,

But all I did was freeze time and create more aches.

I’m lookin’ in the mirror like, “Who the hell are you?”

A man with no roots, just excuses for truth,

Every tear that I swallow is a drink of regret,

And the hangover’s worse ‘cause the past ain’t dead yet.

So I’m standin’ on the ashes, lookin’ over the flame,

Realizin’ runnin’ from pain is still playin’ the game,

If I don’t walk back now, I’ll be six feet deep,

A man who saved no one, not even me.