Screaming Inside

Verse 1

You said we’d talk, I wait all day

Your name lights up, I know you’re there

A fleeting “hey,” if I’m lucky, rare

I tell myself it’s fine, pretend I don't care

But my chest is heavy, I can’t deny

I’m holding my breath, just to get by

You send me a line, then disappear

I see you online, but you’re never here

And I’m stuck alone, drowning in fear

I know it’s childish, I know it’s wrong

But I’ve been seething for far too long

Pre-Chorus

You say we’ll talk, but it’s never enough

A handful of minutes—I crave your voice

I try to stay calm, try to breathe

Still, I’m stuck waiting for a sign

Chorus

I wanna scream, I wanna shout

I’m not stupid, don’t shut me out

I’m not pretend, I’m not a joke

Why do I feel so damn disposable?

I hate this silence, it’s cutting through

I care too much, it’s wrecking my life

Tear this screen, let it all out

I’m not childish, I’m not a fool

But I can’t stop missing you

Why do I feel so damn invisible?

Verse 2

Every “I’m fine” I send’s a lie

Boiling over, I can’t deny

Minutes a day, if I get that

While you scroll away, I’m full of unrest

You’re out of reach, with your friends

But your status shows the time you spend

So I stay quiet, afraid to break

Hoping somehow you’ll feel my ache

Pre-Chorus

I’m not pretending, I’m not your game

I bite my tongue, but I’m not to blame

My heart’s on fire, my mind won’t leave

This screaming silence beats in my chest

Why do I feel so damn small, so damn unseen?

Chorus

I wanna scream, I wanna shout

I’m not stupid, don’t shut me out

I’m not pretend, I’m not a joke

Why do I feel so damn disposable?

I hate this silence, it’s cutting through

I care too much, it’s wrecking my life

Tear this screen, let it all out

I’m not childish, I’m not a fool

But I can’t stop missing you

Why do I feel so damn invisible?

Bridge

I scream inside, but it won’t reach you

Rant and shout, nothing breaks through

I see your space, I see your life

Still, I’m aching for just a sign tonight

I’m sick of hurting, I’m sick of this fight

I know it’s messy, I know the cost

But I can’t control the way I feel

Chorus

I wanna scream, I wanna shout

I’m not stupid, don’t shut me out

I’m not pretend, I’m not a joke

Why do I feel so damn disposable?

I seethe in silence, it eats me alive

I care too much, it poisons my mind

Tear this screen, let it all out

I’m not childish, I’m not a fool

But I can’t stop missing you

Why do I feel so damn invisible?

Outro

All the words I need, I can’t send

Seething inside, alone again

A quiet ache I can’t defend

Staring at the screen, alone in my room

Wishing you’d notice, wishing you’d write

Just a few words, just some time

Instead of leaving me here, losing my mind