too much/not enough

I don’t know why it’s always like this
I try and try and it goes nowhere
Like I’ll ask to hang out, I’ll show up, I’ll be there
And somehow I’m still not really there

I feel everything all at once
Then I overthink it into nothing
Like did they mean that? did I miss something?
Or am I just making it into something

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Pre-Chorus
I hate that I care this much
But I don’t know how not to

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Chorus
Am I too much or not enough?
‘Cause it feels like I’m always both
Like I’m giving everything I have
And still end up alone

I don’t wanna grip for dear life
To people who don’t reach back
Like I’m holding on with everything
And they don’t even grab

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Verse 2
I’ve tried one-on-one, I’ve tried groups
I’ve tried being chill, I’ve tried being me
I’ve gone out, I’ve stayed in
I’ve done everything I’m supposed to be

And it’s not like I’m doing nothing
Like I am putting myself out there
But it never turns into something real
It just kinda… stays there

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Pre-Chorus
And I don’t know what I’m doing wrong
Or if it’s just not me at all

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Chorus
Am I too much or not enough?
‘Cause it feels like I’m always both
Like I’m saying everything I feel
And still nobody knows

I don’t wanna be the one who tries
While everyone else just drifts
Like I’m putting in all this effort
And it doesn’t even stick

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Bridge (your inner voice, more honest)
I just want something that feels easy
Not like I have to earn my place
Not like I’m constantly proving
Why I deserve to stay

I want someone to actually choose me
Not just when it’s convenient
Not just when I’m right in front of them
But like… consistently

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Final Chorus (softer, clearer)
I don’t think I’m too much or not enough
I think I’ve just been in the wrong rooms
Trying to be seen by people
Who don’t know how to

And I’m done gripping onto hands
That were never reaching out
I want something that meets me halfway
Or I’m walking out

Indie Pop / Emotional Alt-Pop (raw + conversational)