too much/not enough

I don’t know why it’s always like this

I try and try and it goes nowhere

Like I’ll ask to hang out, I’ll show up, I’ll be there

And somehow I’m still not really there

I feel everything all at once

Then I overthink it into nothing

Like did they mean that? did I miss something?

Or am I just making it into something

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Pre-Chorus

I hate that I care this much

But I don’t know how not to

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Chorus

Am I too much or not enough?

‘Cause it feels like I’m always both

Like I’m giving everything I have

And still end up alone

I don’t wanna grip for dear life

To people who don’t reach back

Like I’m holding on with everything

And they don’t even grab

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Verse 2

I’ve tried one-on-one, I’ve tried groups

I’ve tried being chill, I’ve tried being me

I’ve gone out, I’ve stayed in

I’ve done everything I’m supposed to be

And it’s not like I’m doing nothing

Like I am putting myself out there

But it never turns into something real

It just kinda… stays there

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Pre-Chorus

And I don’t know what I’m doing wrong

Or if it’s just not me at all

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Chorus

Am I too much or not enough?

‘Cause it feels like I’m always both

Like I’m saying everything I feel

And still nobody knows

I don’t wanna be the one who tries

While everyone else just drifts

Like I’m putting in all this effort

And it doesn’t even stick

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Bridge (your inner voice, more honest)

I just want something that feels easy

Not like I have to earn my place

Not like I’m constantly proving

Why I deserve to stay

I want someone to actually choose me

Not just when it’s convenient

Not just when I’m right in front of them

But like… consistently

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Final Chorus (softer, clearer)

I don’t think I’m too much or not enough

I think I’ve just been in the wrong rooms

Trying to be seen by people

Who don’t know how to

And I’m done gripping onto hands

That were never reaching out

I want something that meets me halfway

Or I’m walking out