God

I tried calling but you just dont answer anymore

I said I was sorry what more can you blame me for

you wanted it all so I gave it to you

my problem and burdens

the good and bad and ugly too

a list of sin to long to read through

and the good not long enough to even mention to you

you know I tried to do the best I can

with every opportunity at my hand

to grow and be a better man

I know i took the wrong path

but I was still going the same direction

no one told me there would be this much math

but maybe it was me and I just didnt listen

but I been screaming In a packed room

and no body hears me

they say it gets better soon

but it dont so I stay so fried

im crispy

every night i got on my knees to pray

and I was in church in the pews every single Sunday

but it just got worse the more I tried to ask

you for help

now im hurt and im all by myself

so as I lay here motionless

pain only in my head

like everything else

every word I ever said

was all made up nothing was real

then you broke my heart

the way you made me feel

alone in the world

asked you into my broken heart

wounded defeated like my life

has fell apart

the good times and my brother

are gone

and in my head is the empty song

once I sang to everyone

and they all sang along

I know nothing in life is in my controle

and the day will come when it all ends

ill pay for the sin when the bell tolls

so I dont know if your real

or if you hate me

but God if your listening

please come and

save me