I started to write a song earlier in the day thinking when I came back it would be okay... However it was not and the saddest part is the words that I had written were long forgot, yah long forgot. I suppose it wasn't meant to be although I don't at all agree. We wake up in the morning the body aches with pains and we somehow manage to get on our feet to do the same thing yet again. while we are thinking to ourselves, this is so insane...no matter how hard i work I just can't seem to get ahead which makes you wonder why the hell did I even get out of bed... Then when you do you push forward and you know not why push forward is all you wanna do is cry the truth of the matter you know it's not likely to change it's not going to change... So we ware our biggest smile and continue to try and yet we can look into a mirror and say we don't lie because we don't dare cry...I think it's crazy . Is this not crazy? We're all crazy...How brain washed we all are as a society and as a whole and all whom live there life we know it surely takes it's tole... But they have conditioned us all our lives for this role and then we pretend like it's what we need to do to reach our goals... Which is something they make imposs sible. Although there is an exception for a chosen few...I wonder other choices do we have? Is there really any more we can that won't make us sad ... We spend our best years seeking happiness that we already have and lose out on all of life in which we already have.... It's not like we haven't already paid our dues cause w all know the rules although we no longer believe in the white picket fence a house ar a wife... Or even just a boyfriend.t you know what I mean and even if we do accomplish all of these things the majority of us most likely won't even succeed you can give all you've got with blood sweat and tears and yet the people I've known seem to just end up with even bigger fears you can see them from a distance and they just want to scream because this was actualy never once our dreams .... Like I said it was never even once one of our... dreams... we were taught when we were young and they made it sound like it was so much fun ... I never believed in that cult brain washing shit....never not once have I ever belieived in this horrific bulll shit not then not now not before nor after not even a little bit however I will continue to do the best that I can because I know wrong from right and right from wrong but bottom line Is only because I am to stubborn to quit... Well the sun is rising yet again time to get up and .... Lalalala... And do it yet again.... Yes once again.. Once again..... And we think we are not crazy that's Pretty crazy right?