Sorry I Am This Way

“I never asked to be broken…

And I never meant to hurt you.

But I’m still sorry I am this way.”

I never asked for this heavy heart,

I never chose to be torn apart.

I bite too hard, I lash too fast,

A storm that strikes, then fades at last.

I don’t want to drag you down,

But I can’t escape my mind.

The pieces never fit,

No matter what I try.

I’m sorry I am this way,

For the anger I can’t control.

I wish I could find the words to say,

Before the fire takes its toll.

I never asked to fall apart,

But I keep breaking your heart.

Snapping back when I don’t mean to,

The ones I love feel the wounds I do.

I hate the echo of the things I’ve said,

A mouth like fire, painting the world red.

I don’t want to drag you down,

But I can’t escape my mind.

The storm inside of me

Has no guide to find.

I’m sorry I am this way,

For the anger I can’t control.

I wish I could find the words to say,

Before the fire takes its toll.

I never asked to fall apart,

But I keep breaking your heart.

If there’s a way to let it go,

I’ll give my pain to the One I know.

If God can take the rage from me,

Then maybe one day I’ll be free.

I never asked to be this way…

I never asked to feel this pain…

I never asked to lose my fight…

But please God, take control tonight!

I’m sorry I am this way,

But I won’t let it define me forever.

I’ll fight to find a brighter day,

And stitch these scars together.

I never asked to fall apart,

But I’ll still protect your heart.

“…I never asked to be broken…

But I’m still sorry I am this way.”