Behind these hazel eyes

You see the red in my eyes but not the pain in my chest

I wear it so well youd think i was the best

At keeping my composure and holding it down

I promise when I get alone my smile turns back to a frown

I never deserved whats been done to me

I been searching for love since i could even breathe.

My heart is a mess but its what makes me me.

Ive cared so much about everyone else

My whole life i been giving

Now theres nothing left on the shelf

I call for help but nobody comes

So i swallow my pride

Tuck my feelings and hide

Behind a mask of smiles and giggles

Its more fun to be there when my world is spinnin

Find a fun place to sit while shit around me is givin,

Bad vibes, they turn into silent cries

And unwanted goodbyes

They say im delusional but this is why

Im tired of obstacles and jumping through hoops

Too much going on at once got me confused

Im ready to let loose

Ive held it in for so long

So if i came off too strong

I apologize

Theres a lot u dont know behind these hazel eyes.