Pull me under

I keep a garden in my head

Where nothing beautiful survives

I water every dying flower

Just to keep it all alive

The cracks beneath my skin are growing

Like roots beneath a ruined home

And every time I try to leave

I build another place to drown

I know the shape

Of every wound

I know the path

That takes me down

Pull me under

I know the way

I feed the darkness

And beg it to stay

Pull me under

Into the deep

I am the shadow

I cannot leave

There are ghosts inside the mirror

Wearing faces that are mine

Every one of them is whispering

That I’ll never be alright

I wear my sadness like a necklace

Close enough to feel it breathe

And every time it starts to loosen

I pull it tighter around me

I know the voice

That calls my name

I know the fire

I always feed

Pull me under

I know the way

I feed the darkness

And beg it to stay

Pull me under

Into the deep

I am the shadow

I cannot leave

If I opened every locked door

Would there be anything behind?

Or only empty rooms

Built from the pieces of my mind?

Maybe I was never trapped

Maybe I was holding the key

Maybe the thing I’ve feared the most

Has always been me

Pull me under

I know the way

I feed the darkness

And beg it to stay

Pull me under

Into the deep

I am the shadow

I chose to keep

The night grows quiet

The voices sleep

But I still hear them

Underneath…