Sleeping with demons, I don’t wake, I convulse,
Eyes stay open but my soul already null,
Darkness in my heart like a permanent pulse,
All I see is blackness when I breathe, when I blink, when I lunge.
Mind move rapid, thoughts cannibalize,
Tear chunks outta peace just to prove I’m alive,
I don’t see tomorrow, I don’t picture a rise,
I see walls closing in and the air getting tight.
No prayers left, I strangled belief,
Faith rotted out, left stains on my teeth,
Every second feel sharp, like it’s carved with a knife,
Time don’t heal shit — it just watches me bleed.
Demons don’t knock, they kick in my skull,
Riot in my head till the silence get dull,
I sprint in place but I’m stuck in the mud,
Chest cave in every time I gulp for a gulp.
No light at the end, that shit never existed,
Just a tunnel that tightens till the vision go missing,
I ain’t fall from grace — I dismantled the system,
Pulled the wires myself, watched everything flicker.
Thoughts overlap, no pause, no rest,
Heartbeat jackhammering holes in my chest,
I talk to the dark ‘cause it answer me best,
Every word it say feel brutally honest.
Hope got executed, no witnesses left,
Dragged out my mind and erased from the text,
I don’t miss peace — I don’t remember its taste,
Just ash in my mouth and a scream in my breath.
My shadow aggressive, it sprint when I run,
It laugh when I trip, it reload when I’m done,
I don’t fight it no more, I let it become,
Now it steer every move and I pull the trigger on trust.
Every memory hostile, every thought armed,
Brain on self-destruct, no fail-safe alarm,
I grind my teeth through the pain and the calm,
‘Cause even silence feel sharp when the world fall apart.
No saviors, no exits, no mercy, no end,
Just pressure on pressure till something give in,
I’m not lost — I know exactly where I am,
I’m buried awake inside who I been.
Breath come shallow, vision collapse,
Pulse in my ears sound like bones getting snapped,
I don’t scream for help, I don’t reach, I don’t ask,
I just let the dark finish what it started in fact.
I exist like a wound that refuse to close,
Every step forward just deepen the hole,
If this life a test then I’m missin’ the score,
Still scribblin’ rage just to prove I was here at all.
