[Verse 1]
I fade into wallpaper
Same four walls
Same stale air
Crowds around me
But I’m
Glass to them
They walk right through
Thoughts start buzzing like a
Hornet nest behind my eyes
Heart races
Hands shake
Hold it in
Till I break
[Pre-Chorus]
Every tiny thing feels like too much
Every little word feels like a punch
I’m screaming in my skull
But I stay quiet
Till I’m not
Till I start a riot
[Chorus]
I’m trying to regulate my storm
But I was never shown the way
Drowning in a brain that’s loud and torn
Lash out
Then I hate what I say
I just wanna breathe
Breathe
Breathe right now
Teach my body how to calm down
Trying to regulate my storm
But I was never shown the way
[Verse 2]
Voices from my childhood
“Swallow it
Don’t make a scene”
Silence at the table
Eyes on screens
Not on me
Now it’s fire at the surface
I go off
Then I regret
Apologies on repeat
Still I haven’t learned it yet
[Pre-Chorus]
Every little look feels like a threat
Every minor mess feels like a test
I don’t wanna bleed on who I love
But I’m shaking
I’m shaking
[Chorus]
[Bridge]
[low vocal register] Count it out
Four in
Six out
Hands on my chest
Ride the waves down
If I wasn’t taught
I’ll teach myself now
Break this chain
Right here
Right now [crescendo]
(Help me calm down, calm down)
[Chorus]