[Verse 1]
I thought I was getting better
But maybe I never did
I stack these tiny victories
Like cards the wind can flip
I smile when I don’t feel it
Say “I’m fine” then shut the door
My heart keeps running marathons
Without knowing what for
[Chorus]
I thought I was getting better
But maybe I never did
I try so hard
That I forget how to live
I’m holding on by a thread
When I wanna quit
I thought I was getting better
But maybe I never did
[Verse 2]
Friends say they can see a change
But they don’t see 3 a.m
The looping worst-case movies
I play inside my head
I cross another day off
Like proof that I survived
Is healing just a highlight reel
Or something real inside?
[Bridge]
What if getting better
Doesn’t look like this?
What if breaking down
Is part of it?
I’m tired
So tired
But I’m still here
One more shaky step
Past the fear
[Chorus]
I thought I was getting better
But maybe I always did
I try so hard
Just to show up like this
I’m holding on by a thread
But I won’t quit
I thought I was getting better
Maybe this hurt is it