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To the most incredible person you are I know you’re in there and I love that about you. I see your heart wide open. I care about you and you should care about yourself cause no one should be feeling worthless, a shame, fearful, should be positive. Every chance you have because that time you miss out on will be the hardest in your life. I wanted to treatment center in and out, and I don’t like that life for myself so now I’m putting a step in putting the work in to step forward and stay that I trust you I love you and so many other things is in my heart. I love you if I could, I would hold everyone in my arms for how long they need me to. I will teach them the deep breathing techniques I learned at Crownview. I never thought I would ever get better and I still feel that way right now, but I also know that I’ll get through it. It’s not the end for me. It’s just the beginning to start my life the way I want to, but people go into down spirals and sometimes that’s not their fault. It’s because of trauma and other mental health disorders. I love the fact that I have everything that I’ve been wanting since I left Colorado Springs even if you miss your parents and love them, don’t wanna put them through hell like I did that was the worst feeling of my life when I went into Crownview not thinking it was gonna work but then getting through it and thinking what else can I do in my life even if I’m not 100% better yet I also know that I’ll be OK but if you want me to tell you, hey you, I don’t know where you became, but you become someone who I never honestly met or know for a while from my peeps who I met in from you and everyone else who met a lot to me in from you. I know that I’m gonna be OK even in the moment when I first walked in those doors and I thought it was living. Hell I’m my freedom back, but I don’t think I really want that back because I was doing dumb shit every day like on my stuff the last day or my last day night there I ended up doing dumb crap that cost me to move treatment centers two times and it wasn’t easy sometimes it was hard but other days it was easy that Crownview had days where I didn’t wanna get out I didn’t wanna do meds. I didn’t wanna fight for my life but once you find the right person right couple people in your life understood you you get what you wanna get done in your life I met so many kind and wonderful people in Crownview in Cali. I don’t know what I would’ve done. If I didn’t meet them I’m not gonna disclose our names or anything, but I’m gonna be in the middle of fighting for myself. They know I can and also fighting for whoever around you right now needing someone to have their back even if I’m not physically there because all I wanna see people do right now is fight for their life and stop doing negative stuff like SI that’s not cool. I thought that was something I wanted to do multiple times but I couldn’t I couldn’t had a lot on the line and I just SI that’s not cool. I thought that was something I wanted t